So, I have always wanted to journal, but I have always been way to self-conscious of my hand writing because it is not too neat. I have bought numerous journals with cute little flowers and artsy designs all over them and I have also been given some too. But when I sit down to write something I think what if I mess up. What if when I am finished it is not going to look neat. Same with a blog. I feel this odd need to make it, with lack of better words, like my myspace. Where I have foolishly spent hours making it perfect. Just the way I want it to look. But I just came to the conclusion that it is my journal. Who is going to care if it looks artsy or whatever. Most likely no one else is going to see it. So with the inspiration of a few friends I have decided to write down what is in my heart. So, from the beginning I want to make a few promises.
#1 I promise to not make my blog look a certain way just because it might look cool to some people. This is my blog. It should look like what is in my heart not some superficial standards that I have set for myself.
#2 I promise to not write anything just because it sounds cool. I want this blog to be me and what the Lord is doing in me and not my superficial needs to be cool or liked.
#3 I want this blog to express me, but not be about me or my emotions. I want it to be what God has put in my heart and what He is doing in my life.
Well, now that that is out of the way I want to share a little bit of my heart right now.
Love.
Recently I have gained this abundant love in my heart. It was quit all of a sudden. One day I just woke up and I loved everybody. My mom, my dad, my sister, my friends, my co-workers, and especially Jesus. This love that I have for Jesus is something that I have never felt before. I have never loved anything or anyone like this. I have always been a Christian and always known what I was supposed to do. I have always known that He is real and He is there for me but it has never been this real to me. Not necessarily Him being real to me but my love for him being this real. I have found myself being bold in situations where I know three months ago I would have kept my mouth shut. I have caught myself talking about Him in places where it is technically not allowed. For example last week at my job my boss was ranting on how he could spend Brittney Spears' money better than she could and how she is just a spoiled brat and that he doesn't like her. I just kind of stopped what I was doing and looked at him and said "You know, Jesus loves Brittney so I love Brittney". Now I know that I wouldn't have said anything of the sort three months ago.
This love that I now have can only come from God because God is love. It is not something that I could have made up.
There is a song that John Mayer sings called "Bold as Love". I enjoy singing the course, I am as Bold as Love. because God is Love! When you say that you are saying that you are as bold as God. as Jesus. How awesome to be as bold as Jesus and to do the things that Jesus has done.
John 14:12 I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the father.
I am so thankful for this new love in my heart.
I will do the things that he has called me to because I honestly and truly love Him!
